i brace myself into your arms,
falling deeper into the maze of yours
to keep finding the way to the end point
or to leave this maze i cant decide

if im stronger , i'll let this pass.
even if i didnt make it through, i know i tried
im tired of talking to you , trying to make you understand
tired of convincing myself to do things i never enjoyed
all the things done was never seem to be appreciated
it seem like it was just my foolish decision
so many things i hate about you and lil things i love about you
yet im so in love with ya.
one day will i look back and laugh at my stupidity
in fact , im drained.
i dont know what i can do to make things better anymore
no longer looking forward to anything.
Just wish for time alone now
trying hard to let it go slowly now .
maybe im just not that girl for you...


i know i would not be so insistent
if you would have given me more.

Somehow after not blogging for awhile ,
i have no idea how to start.
Want to note down every part of my memories now .
So far im doing good .
Enjoying the new year 2011, everything seems to be getting better as days pass
Family issue are not so intense now .
Less quarrels and fights with him , cause im trying hard not to say anything that will spark the quarrel.
it was a tough year end for him , glad that i could be some help for him .
Finally , he brought me to his place to meet his parents officially
haha and it really feel good though wasnt anything officially but i do appreciate the fact
Just feel like its a start for our relationship and i do feel more secure now.
Somehow im used to his bad habit now .
His sleeping habit , his lateness , his laziness .
staying at downtown during the weekend is something im doing for the past month
just hoping one day , he would just tell me maybe we should head to town or something
or at least do something interesting .
You never know actuallly every lil things said or done was deeply heard by me and remembered.
Everything just happens in a flash,
soon Chinese new year and Valentine day are coming
im all prepared for chinese new year and warming up for it
Done my nails which cost me a little too much than normal
but now im obsessed with gel nails .
just feel so disorientated when its was out
and brought my clothes online and my pretty new garments !
which i think was well-spent :)
awaiting for my bonus from my boyfriend ,
hopefully he honor his agreement with me on the wallet !
anyway totally love my new watch & my new camera samsung ex1 .
so im all ready for new year !

Loves

Ages since i blogged,
I deleted all my past achives and decided to start blogging again
Cause i can finally upload pictures now ,
Year 2010 didnt ended well .
Definitely not gonna let this year be another disappointment
And Secret of Beautiful Eyes Spree 4 has launched !
www.secretofbeautifuleyes.blogspot.com

I want to travel so badly again ,
but not thailand please
i know i'll end up being there
I haven accomplished my backpack in asia dream last year
hopefully i would be able to achieved it .
In fact, im afraid of stepping out alone
staying in a Motel.
but i need to save up first !


Let me stay out of all those things ,
and keep me safe in here.