Just went to have a look at Melisa Blog
it brings back some memories that i seem to have lost touch with
i just realise i have been missing alot all this while
probably i'm too into this whole relationship
i seem to have lost touch to myself
i used to be independent , used to be so motivated , so ambitious
and inspired
yet now its all missing in me
but baby i dont meant you have to let me to be independent now

my days used to be all planned up
but now everyday i have no idea what gonna happen later
i'm becoming more and more lazy maybe i'm idling too much
it seems everything is flashing back in my mind
at a point of time , i almost forget the meaning of my life
when i used to remember clearly in my mind
but its all missing all these while
thanks Melisa
Night Skating & Cycling soon alright
Went skating with Hilary
the main purpose was actually to find Sexys
cause he's working today
lol Both of us skate all the way to Changi
and we went pass the Safra Club
the Bungalows / Chalets are just so damn nice
i cant wait to book it , and have a stay in there
oh my god ,
with windows panes all around the bungalows
but i'm not really sure about inside
anyway its looks really nice outside
and i never knew it
i thought it always been the old bungalows
i need a change in my life
Sexys i love you !

P.S I Love You

I miss my Sister !

she's been away from home for days
things change now ,
when Both Me & Ruth thought they would be the lasting ones
and we really like him as a family

but ya they aint meant
m-o-v-e-o-n sister !
its seems to be so normal for us to quarrel
and i'm always fine after awhile
but he's always the one still mad
so sometimes i just feel like laughing watching him being angry
my handphone bill was so ridiculous !
and he didnt console me yet adding words to make me feel worst
that's him
he never make me feel better ,
and today i got him to lie to me
haha , which really make me feel better
i love it when he lie cause thats when he says the nicest word
(:
We had En on our first month
cause half of our day was ruin
and he went to brought me this plush flower
i stopped him and he insisted -.-
and i was really embarassed to carry so i just smash it in my bag
haha , but thanks baby
thats really sweet
met up Jerry recently
we planned to go skating and movie
yet after movie on the way back
the rain came !
though it spoiled our skating plan
but it was nice with the rain
we went changi ,
walk round and did some dumb colouring
but we learnt some tricks ya

and went for some Pig Organ Soup
was having this craving for soup
it just feel nice , drinking some hot soup when its raining outside
loves

P.S I Love You

i think i had a great weekend ?
though there's no night chill out , night movie or skating
with my cliques or buddy
but i still miss all that still !
however now , its different
i dont expect life to be the same as before
i think i should expect things to be better ?
though i aint sure how long we may last
but i'm gonna make every second count (:
this one month we had
was a tough one i guess
all the quarrelling , but i hope we have settle down now ?
guess rest of the month we would have less of that ya
but i guess all that make us know what we really expect
or probably just me making all those requests ?

haha , but baby i did see the changes you made
and i really appreciate that
i love you Sexys !
Saturday i met Keith !
haha , everything was so coincidence
it just so happen that Keith was Ryan Campmate !
oh my god ,
i was shock , cause they happen to be together when i met them
and Charlotte was there !
(: we had lunch together
and they are a bunch of friendly people
i think they really love keith
we cant seem to get away from them
they even got us to catch movie with them
cause we didnt want it
haha , i was kinda force
and i got to catch it twice
Beverly Hills Chihuahua
cause after that went to meet Sexys and catch with him & his cliques
And Sunday , we spent half of our day sleeping !
i'm getting really lazy
maybe because of my hair ,
i just dont feel like going out !
and Dinner at Aston
i guess that one of the worst time of my life
was lazy to dress up just for a dinner
haha
Daddy , Andrew & Hilary was in
and dinner was great
thanks to Ruth
everyone was laughing over her Photo
baby say she looks like Jesus -.-
and Everyone starts to discuss about it
haha , Dad even got the joke !
the three of us are out today
andrew is busy being a fillal
so we catch Body of Lies
okay , i hate this kind of show
and its bladdy 2hrs !
oh my god
and went ikea & finally
My Favourite PopEye (:
i miss chilling out
and I miss night movie w Jerry !


P.S I Love You

i'm losing myself sooner or later
i'm home almost everyday to accommodate you
i'm losing my freedom somehow ,
and thats so not me ,
i use to fight for my rights ,
but somehow i hold it back
i lost my rights to say now
you're chauvinistic
maybe i'm just not the girl for you
i'm not the one who will always go your way
i have my own say , my own stand
i'm always ending up apologising to you cause of your chauvinism
i just felt that my feelings are ignored
what hurts the most was hearing you talking bout her
i felt insecure now
action works more than words
you may say a thousand times but i just dont feel it
it still dont make any difference
i need you to sort out your feelings ,
i'll definitely go your way ,
if she meant so much to you
its pointless for us to go on this way
i need someone who truly loved me
i need an assurance of this relationship
if its just gonna be another relationship to you
i would rather end it now
i give my best to this relationship
you get mad when im expressing my feelings
thinking im blaming you
you know yourself well
whether you're talking abt her or him
you can denied it , but you can't denied that you still have feelings for her
you always walk away when there's a problem
in you , you always think its my fault
i'm just being ridiculous
i just need you to sort out your feelings
if you think i dont care , i only come to you when i need you
i wont be bothered at all

packed my stuff yesterday
saw the letter qirui wrote for me on my last year birthday
i'm really touched , it just reminds me how loved was i
it just bring a smile on my face
though we drifted apart now ,
but Qirui , you'll always be the best friend i ever had & wanted
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Its has been a long day for me
i love my salesman !
i'm touched when i heard he would only want to work with me
haha
i been really lackadaisical for the whole day during work
i felt bad cause i didnt help much
though he's always teasing me about me slacking
but i know he's fine with it
he always telling me to stop dreaming which make me kept laughing
whenever he say this phase cause he's reaction is just so hilarious
Baby surprised me with his mushy message today
haha , i hope he's gonna be nice and send me everyday
you just make my day so much better
didnt able to wake up for work yesterday
all thanks to that bastard for letting me not having good sleep these days
i would take back my words for saying him as a burden
and if he would have confronted to me about his problem ,
i could have been more compassionate and understanding
its was the 6words , thats cause us to quarrel again
thats the problem thats always exist in a relationship
Communication ,
Womens usually dont meant exactly what they say
yet Men always think in a different way
thats why i been reading the book
ya , i found it really helpful
it got me to understand and see things in a different way
Womens Are from Venus , Mens are from Mars
Love Lesson 1
Men are Motivated and Empowered when they feel Needed ,
Women are Motivated and Empowered when they feel Cherished
We often mistakenly assume that if our partner love us they will react and behave

when we love someone
Many times a women just wants to share her feelings about her day
and her partner , thinking he is helping interrupts her by offering a steady flow of solution
When a men is under stress or feeling upset they often becomes quiet and go to their private caves or do things to forget his problem , mulling over it to find a solution alone
yet a women feel better by getting together and openly talk about their problems and often when we all come back after a busy day of work , wihtout knowning each of us down under alot of stress , came approachng each other in different ways which often leads to the conflict
When a women is upset , overwhelmed , confused ,exhausted ,hopeless what she need most is simple companionship
she need to find out she's not alone , she need to feel loved an cherished
often men's instinct tell them its best to be alone when they are upset , so when she's upset
out of respect he will leave her alone or thinking if he stays he would worsen the matter
men doesnt instinctively realise how very important closeness , intimacy , and sharing are to her what she needs the most is just someone to listen
We often heard love is bout giving in
and at times ,one will think they are giving in too much or too lil
Understanding, Trust , Compassion , Acceptance and Support are the solution and not just blaming our partners .
A men should offers his support though she didnt ask for , listen and open up for her by doing lil things to show that you care though at first it sounds like blame
and instead of blaming men for giving less , a women can accept and forgive
her partners imperfections , especially when he disappoint her , trust that he wants to give more Women often think that to fully express our feelings , we assume poetic license to use various superlatives, metaphors and generalizations

Ruth's finally back !
i kinda miss her when she's away for long
perhaps she's the second one who understand me well
both of us are like catching up , busy chatting with each other during dinner
everything around us seems invisible
though its usual she's always not around but this time round
i just seem to miss her more than usual
haha
Family Dinner
Everyone was present except you
i just felt something amiss , your presence
maybe i'm not trying hard enough
but i really have no idea what am i suppose to do to alleviate the pain inside me ?
home seems to be the only place that make me feel closer to you
mum , i cant feel you around nowadays
i miss you

I miss you Faith's Melissa
hows thats ?

haha !
meet up soon girl (:
Keith & Samantha ,
I'm awaiting for this week to meet you guys !
loves

P.S I Love You
hold me tight in your arms when i'm weak , will you ?

i been getting really emotion nowadays
i get affecting easily now ,
thanks god for making my life so interesting
full of obstacle
things always happen one after another
and i have to always stand up all by myself
all these just make me weaker each time
and i'm losing myself more each time
thanks samantha for all those words
it wake me up somehow
maybe you're the one who have overlook what i have gone through
and thanks god ,you been there for me
i'm learning to avoid
probably thats the best way out for me
to solve the problems ,
i wonder what more are there for me to face and overcome
had a big fight with him last night
thats why Womens are from Venus and Mens are from Mars
i'm starting to read the book now
i'm laughing while reading it ,
i bet if you're in a relationship you will go through this
and you definitely find the things wrote inside are just so familar
went out together today
the usual four of us
went to skate (:
took a cab to Sexys place ,
while waiting for him ,
My sister & Andrew was so irritating
and she accidentally spilt her silvar on the cab driver
and the cab driver reaction was so hilarious
i cant stop laughing , and i bet the cab driver think
he had got four insane people on the cab
haha ,
We skated for few hours
i jsut kept laughing along the way
and Andrew & hilary is just on their own world
hilary on her lalala land ya
cause she kept doing all the stupid stuff while skating
we had steamboat for dinner at Roxy Square
didnt have much appetite nowadays
tomorrow is gonna be another week of work !
i hope it will end really soon


loves

P.S I Love You

I'm tired
i doubt you understand what i'm going through
i have lots of things troubling me yet i have got you adding to my burden
you always think you are right , im just making a big fuss
i been tolerating , but theres always a limit
your jokes aint making me laugh , probably yourself ?
but have you thought about my feelings ?
i always been treating my friends that way
and none of them think its offensive , they never return their punches
i'm jsut disappointed that you didnt even went after me
when i leave , you just think staying with them is more important than going after me
i'm alone
thanks ,
if you think you been treating me really well
then maybe others are treating me too well
that i thought thats the way i should be treated
you are just not listenng what i'm saying now
i'm trying to tell you how i feel but you are just getting even mad
i just need you to understand , and being here for me now
yet all you know is being angry of me for not being satisfield over you
when i say you have not been treating me well
did you start reflecting over it
why am i saying all this, if you think you have done all you can
maybe i'm just expecting too much then
do you know why we are always quarrelling cause
you are still making the same mistakes ?
in fact im not mad over at what happen this evening
i'm just stress over other things
you dont tell me your problems how would i know
do you know i'm lacking all my confidence
you're making me feeling so incompatible for you
i'm just so not perfect ya , yes i know i am
perhaps you just dont understand me
i'm throwing temper ?
i'm just feeling so down that my mood are all spoiled
i didnt want to lie to you about last night
but you just didnt give me enough trust to say the truth to you
ya maybe for that i'm in wrong
i always want you to apologise
cause you never say it , and dont you think you are the cause
if you haven been irritating me would i get mad ?
i need your sincere apology and not just for the sake
sometimes doing things for others , you dont have to expect any returns
maybe to you , i been treating you fairly
but i think i treat you well above all the relationships i had
i been putting a strong face infront of you all the time
but things just keep on coming ,
i cant even take it now
all i need is you being here with me
being understanding
i'm tired of quarrelling

the first time i saw Bon laugh till cry -.-
haha

i love my retarded face -.- !

Before my haircut !

Wee Trying to flex his muscle ya ?!

Ahem !

Today was a bad day for me
i wasnt able to wake up for work ,
and my day is screwed up by him
thanks , and just so happen i read your blog
if you think you're right , i wont need you to apologise
i dont think you know what have you done to make me so mad
you havent been putting yourself in my shoe
so you're always right , i'm always in fault
i'm just the spoilt brat
you're the one that annoys me and you end up being the one mad at me
so am i suppose to laugh , and smile now ?
since you say everything you did was just a play or joke
can you be more serious at times ,
this kind of hurtful words arent for you to joke ard
i'm sensitive , i cant take this kind of joke
i regretted bringing the scarf out ,
cause it just reminds me of you ,
i wasnt flirting , i'm just with my best friends and his cliques
and i'm also kidding about that i'm flirting
have my haircut today ,
a new look , oh my god
my fringe is now straight
Qirui would like my bangs
cause he been pestering me to cut bangs
i'm just so not used to it , and just felt so not me now
hope it gets better , i trust my new hair stylist
and this haircut cost me a bomb
cause my hairstylist is off today :(
i kinda wish my hairstylist wasnt off today
so i wont make my foolish decision on changing my hairstyle
went out with Bon and his cliques
quite odd at first , but they are really nice ppl afterall
they accompany me to the salon ,
and waited for my hair to be cut
which took quite sometime , cause the hairstylist i requested
was busy , he usually take appointments
i'm touched friends !
and we went to have chicken rice (:
i miss far east chicken rice
when i used to have it with Sam almost every week !
but its closed now :(
have fun with them , their silly jokes
have to turn in early
work tomorrow ,i got to wake up early
working for British American Tobacco this two weeks
glad that huirong , gillian & bettina are working
and just so coincidence that on the first day
huirong salesman just so happen to be my salesman team
cause there's like 18girls
the rain spoiled our first day ,
and everything was drag , we were behind time at first
and i was so tired , didnt had enough sleep
my salesman was nice to let me catch some nap
(:

loves

he's always giving that face -.-

hah

Plans ruin today cause of the rain :(
wanted to go hiking yet end up staying home now
and its always manjong !
been playing this few days

i'm starting to hate it now ,
playing once a time is fine but not everyday
oh my god , and i'm always playing for the sake of him
-.- yet he's not standing on my shoe
and playing his manjong now
lol , i hate the feeling of idling around
Friday was Randy's Birthday
his buddy , and none of his friend plan anything up for him
so everyone just got up his place ,
and have the cake cut , dinner and thats all
pretty simple birthday celebration
ya lastly the cake bash
perhaps thats the only thing i think they did something about his birthday
Saturday was Mum's 49days
have to get up early after only 4hours of sleep
cause of the late manjong last night
surprised to see my aunts there
i thought would be just us
we did the prayer , and Ruth is always so annoying
cause she doesnt have to chant doesnt allow her to keep interupting me
and Sexy was there with me
but he's just another annoying freak after sister left
humming some old songs -.-
got mum home at last ,
(: i'm feeling so much better having her back with us
yet at the same time , i'm feeling so lost
i guess it gonna take me a really long time to get myself up
i just want to hear her again
feel her presence , and see her smile
i just felt so lost without you
maybe its your love i'm missing the most
you been too well to me mum
that make me so hard to let go
so hard for me to accept i'm gonna be on my own now
you always been the one shielding me
i'm sorry for all the words i once said to hurt you
you know i dont meant it
was just words of anger
i love you mum
and i think i been really nice to that jerk
so now he's really going overboard
Ironing his clothes for him
Cooking Maggi Mee for him
Mcdonalds , In the Middle of the Night !
and playing manjong for his sake
i been treated like a slave more ya

haha, but at least he's been good to me afterall
just minus all the fights we had
almost every other day , its becoming a rountine ?
but afterall you just make me love you more
loves





P.S I Love You

Cute Outfit ?
Cause thats the nicest we could find for her size at the pet shop ;P

*Candid for them !
haha I'm Sorry Andrew

loves

he's always not prepared -.-
but thats when i look good

(: My Favourite fastfood

she's just too hyper

haha , isnt she adorable !

Inspecting my bag ?

Evidence of the Sicko him
he just have his wallpaper fill with my pictures
haha but i love it !

Our plans were ruin yesterday cause of the rain :(
and when we finally got a plan B ,
the rain stops !
lol , was suppose to bring surffy to east coast park
end up went to have popeye at Singapore flyer
(: it just remind me of the time i use to visit changi airport like almost everyday
i kinda miss that period of time somehow
and we have to actually just wait for time to pass
met Hilary , Dreewwww & Dad for movie at 9
Quantum of Solace (:
Catch PS I Love You with Sexys in the night
was suppose to skate but we were just to tired to continue
so we end up skating back home -.-
and today !
we shift our plans ,
we brought her to east coast park !
w CheongSum & pink shoes on her
cause thats the nicest we could find in the pet shop

but she still look adorable in it !
was tiring , cause she's too lazy to run
so we have to go with her pace

but i enjoy it though
West Coast Park next ya dear ?
haha
i love you sexys
though you're annoying all the time !
and thats really irritating at times
i never thought you gonna make a difference in my life
you are my essential needs
your hugs , kisses and smiles are my vital needs
love

P.S I Love You

Frog Leg Porridge (:

Candid !

Sexys' !

these few days been with Sexys (;
went to visit mum last few days
it was bad , thinking throughout the journey
trying hard to tell myself its alright , move on
but it hard , this coming sat gonna be the 49days

i cant imagine i have actually part with her for 45days
wosshh , i need a break
was with Hilary & her boyfriend last few days
Couples dating
went out with Amelia yesterday !
(: i accompanied her for lunch
meet up soon ya girl !
finally i'm meeting boonchew tml
its been billion years since i met him
Cause he was busy with his exams & GIRLS ya
right BON ?
skate with sexy yesterday
and i fall againnnnn
lucky this time round , my phone wasnt hurt
that hurts the most ya
i'm so in love with sexy
i think im gonna die now without meeting him a day
thanks to you ,
Ya , and you always be the most handsome guy in my eye (:
so stop questioning me !
haha , i'm putting all my focus on you already dear
friends are important as well , but you're the most important one
are you glad now ?

quarrelling with you would be the last thing i would want
i just want spend all my days with ya
wishing everyday would be the sweetest

went all the way to kovan to have this frog leg porridge
maybe i just dont know how to appreciate it
didnt have the appetite to have it though i was hungry !
Dad just told us a joke -.-
i find it really hilarious cause didnt expect thats the reply he would tell the salesman
Salesman: Would you want to get a free trip & stay at Phuket ?
You just have to attend a seminar , you can get your wife along as well
Dad: My wife is in the coffin ......
-.- ya thats my dad !
we got his dog shoes and clothes (:
cause we bringing him out to east coast tomorrow (:
haha , thats what i always wanted to do
there's still lots of places , we have yet go
just hope you would stop thinking of manjong
so we would have more time spend outside
but thats impossible
baby , thanks for now
i just wish time would just stop at this period of time

*Melisa i'm missing you
we gonna meet up real soon ya girl
love

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